Saturday, April 13, 2013

Nocturne


I can't remember how but during my trip to Rome during the nights I started to listen to Wild Nothing again and actually listened to the full album Nocturne. Almost every night I stayed up until 5 am, during the quiet hours, when everyone else was fast asleep and I would head my way into my internal world. I immersed myself into the sounds of Wild Nothing. I became nocturne. My sleeping patterns are screwed up to the point of no return - the waking and sleeping hours are long gone lost, I cannot tell the difference between breakfast, lunch and dinner, and get confused between what is today and what is tomorrow. This, I know, will screw up my system and it already has messed up with the way I function in day to day life but there is something about the late night hours I am addicted to. It's not that I'm not tired, nor it is insomnia; it's like some kind of drug. That hour at 4 am, where you no longer know if it is late or early, where the birds starts to sing, where it is neither the end of the day nor the beginning, people are neither here or there, everything feels surreal. Maybe I'm drawn to the grey areas: the moments that are hard to define, the feelings that are not one way or another... I guess I just don't really like having things set in stone, black and white, there's always a space in between and I've always been in that space. In that sense, people may sometimes see me as lost, confused, frazzled, passive, and a push-over perhaps - but it's never as it seems. It's something else. Something I can't really explain.

I never felt that a whole album could define so many feelings I feel so completely. It's not only the melodies that pulled me in but the words. I read in an interview that Jack Tatum, singer and songwriter, never put too much thoughts into the words but rather more into creating 'the mood' of the song, which I think is the magic to his words - they are moulded by a stream of subconscious rather than being something contrived. I like when things come naturally that way - you feel your way through things by the energy and mood around you. There is truly a nocturnal mood throughout the whole album which really brought the night to life for me. I always felt like I could really be sucked into the atmosphere of the night.



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